I will walk along these hillsides in the sun beaneath the sunshine I am feathered by the moonlight falling down on me

change. it's a difficult pill to swallow and an even harder step to take. We don't like it, we're not used to it, and when it finally arrives we are surprised for willing it into our doorstep. But the truth of the matter remains and we choose our destiny as the choices are unveiled to us on this path. And ultimately the only path we have to take are the choices we've made along the way. And at the end of the road there are never clear answers or further truths revealed. On the contrary the end of the path brings about it further questions and twice as many paths to continue on. And I guess that is the reality of change, the fact that no matter how much change we seek the work always seems to duplicate and that happiness we seek is even less attainable. But that's just us, those of us not tied down to any certain ideal or thought, that ultimately the wind comes back up to call us on our next journey wherever that may be- we don't' predict it, we cannot plan it, it simply is, and the custom of allowing it to be becomes harder and harder as the years pass on. We tend to lose our true selves in the experiences we've had and molding who we are back into a concrete mold of someone who is mean to interact in a normal living environment seems harder than we were once used to. The coming back to something is always tough to imagine. The settlement which is a word I never wanted to use or even think of, because for me settling in less settling than thinking about multiple tortures at once. I cannot think of myself as someone who can commit to something other than the path right in front of me. So I guess the answer lies in my belief- if I take it as one day at a time scenario rather than a settling of my lifestyle- than the move becomes less of a stress and more of an enjoyment. I have to focus on the positive and forget the negative of the current live I leave... or in my case ignore the positive of my current life and listen to the new positives.. evolve, and grow in a way, learn and adapt and become who I am meant to be.. follow my passions and my intuition.